Banish The Thought

Banish the thought

banish the thought of

beautiful inaccessible boys

who don’t readily express emotions

and wear their opinions openly

and hold friendships tightly

Banish the thought

banish the thought of

inadequacy and never good enough

and if you were a sun

I’d be a sulking moon

and this stomach is too soft 

Banish the thought

banish the thought of 

constant survival, I keep on

just surviving, deep breaths, deep breaths

when reality is so different

so full of breakthroughs and catalysts

and fierce new ideas

Banish the thought

Banish the thought of 

proving intelligence brashly

cravenly making points

to make my intellectual stand point

HERE I AM WORLD AND I AM INTELLIGENT

Those that you admire most, wear their intelligence quietly

remember this, remember this

Banish the thought

Banish the thought of 

not doing enough, too slow, too inward focused

you were never one to rush and ram 

You will do what you need to do

and more, 

and much, much more.

Banish the thought

Banish the thought

of emotions that are not requited

dreams that are not substantiated

hopes that are hurtful

Banish the thought

Banish the thought of all

that does not honor and love you

that does not come in healing

and mercy and wonder. 

Banish the thought.